Across the lagoon, it’s a snowy egret I seestanding with one leg bent like a brokenhanger, foot like a child's yellow boot. I know this for a fact because I’ve just now read thatthe snowy egret has a black bill and yellow feetand the larger great egret is reversed. And to remember this particular bird… Continue reading To Know Something Certain
3 a.m. Encounter with the Moon
What I Remember
are mournful gulls,the hollow clang of lobster boat bells,the cloak of November melancholy misting over a small harbor town,a place facing backward at Pleistocene tides,at gravity’s pull on the moon and the sea. I often felt sad at my parents' home.When my plane touched down, I sank in the cold,the constant swashing ebbing and flowthat… Continue reading What I Remember
Making Peace
Sometimes when you look for peaceyou gaze at the Pacific where you see the absenceof dishonesty, war, racism, borders. You see a world rinsed cleanof anger and man-made scars. I close my eyes to see my peace:an imagined cabin under the stars steeped in the wood smell of old smoldering ash, around me a flying geese quilt tight as a… Continue reading Making Peace
Lesson from a Giant Swallowtail
I've been expecting himsince his mother scatteredhurried shadows overthe orange tree two weeks ago.Still, when it comes, his reveal is sudden as the lightning boltson his velvet wings,the morning mist nearlyconcealing his midnight black,his Fred Astaire elegance. But this is 2020, a yearthat staggers to the endholding its head in its hands,and even his butterflyperfection… Continue reading Lesson from a Giant Swallowtail
To My Grand-daughter, about Nature
Sometimes they’re perturbed by me—your parents—for leading you astraywhen I answer yes, you can climb that tree.How many chances come your way in a lifetime to look beyond, to see downto the ground and then sway with the riverof existence in that limber brownbranch, to feel the coil and shiver of a western wind in… Continue reading To My Grand-daughter, about Nature
So Much That I Don’t Know
I’m almost lulled to sleep and quit my bookby the voice overhead of green on green—like the shift and tumble of a brookbut spoken by a wind through the trees. A yellow butterfly dips and quiverslike a lazy autumn leaf. Then a crack and all thought is lost of streams and rivers,and the pale sky… Continue reading So Much That I Don’t Know
Harbingers of Change
I watch with some dismay as they facethe glittering Pacific, their feathersruffled in the coil and furl of a mid-September breeze, and despitethe long passage their plumage is crisp and white as silence. The royal terns are back for the winter.With their ragged black crestsand dagger-like beaks they pose with entitlement on their piece of… Continue reading Harbingers of Change
Which Way Is the Past?
I finally replaced our basketball netwith a brand new ultra-white version of hope—imagined us shooting hoops again soon,defying the athletic limits of age. Who knows, I said, the kids might returnand we’d show their children how to play "Horse,"—who's first to get a hoop for each letter—and time could stall like the arc of the… Continue reading Which Way Is the Past?
The Old Apple Tree
“The world breaks everyone, and afterward many are strong at the broken places.” Ernest Hemingway, “A Farewell to Arms” A century of apples broke its back— in the dappled shade, that farthest tree— the trunk lies horizontal in the grass, too weak, for now, to battle… Continue reading The Old Apple Tree
To an Old Dog Named Lucy*
The number of steps to the escape hatch and the lake of grass that's in the backyard, the distance to the sidewalk of sun and the warmth that makes your tail tick-tock, directions west to food and water and east to the winding carpeted stairs— behind your silenced ears and blind eyes there’s a map… Continue reading To an Old Dog Named Lucy*